AKU yg dulu bukan yg sekarang..

HALLO reader.. its been so long since i dont post anything in this blog...heee...maafkan saya..soryy..
well im so busy lately...really2 busy.. but its ok actly...good for my mind and olso my LITTel tiny Heart...kicik betul ba hati saya ne smpai org suka2 mau pijak..adededehhh...haha... but now i already put on wall around my heart.. and hoping that no one can break it out again again again..tet.. as before...
ya ALLAH SWT.. jagala hati ini sngguhnya hamba mu ini sgt lemah hatinya...amin.,:(

so now the important thing is my work.. my life.. and my family..need to focus.. saya young lg ba.. young and gojes lg kan...petik jari seja ba ne..tingal pilih seja c mama bilang...haha... so there is no such thing as LOVE love LOve.. enough for that... its time for me to recover... my heart need time.. so for those trying to make me fall in love again..aceheceh... mcmla ada kan... sorry i guess i need to reject u all..and again sorry..opsss..:)

FOLLOW the rules..
1) no time to be sad..
2) enjoy life..
3) dont be desperate... hello.. u are worth more than that..
4) believe ur self..
5) stop thingking about HIM.. coz if he love u..he would never do that.. especially making u cry...
yaiii crying mcm baby.. bikin malu btl kan.. common la..hati dan perasaan mimang begitu.. but now i guess enough already..i try my best and this is what i get...THANK YOU VERY MUCH..:)..
6) i hope u happy.. doakan dia bahagia dunia akhirat..amin...:)
7) i will never hate you.. remember that..so please put a smile on your face..like i did..:)
8) work hard...
9) kerja..hidup and family thats all for now..
10) MOVE ON..and keep walking princess..

~waiting you its like waiting rain in the drought... Useless and full of disappointed...

❤ Belajarlah untuk kehilangan dia..andai dia bukan jodoh kamu ✔
❤ Belajarlah untuk tabah..andai dia pergi dari hidup kamu ✔
❤ Belajarlah untuk menerima hakikat..yang dia bukan milik kamu ✔
❤ Belajarlah untuk berhenti mencintai dia..andai cinta dia bukan untuk kamu ✔

Keep the faith and believe

Keep the faith and believe !

Allah menguji kita dengan sesuatu yang sangat kita sayang,
Kita diberi cubaan dengan kehilangan,
Allah menguji kita dengan sebuah impian yang amat kita harapkan.

"… Jika seseorang hadir dalam hidup kamu dan menjadi sebahagian daripada kamu , tetapi atas sebab tertentu dia terpaksa pergi, jangan terlalu sedih , terimalah kenyataan itu dan sekurang-kurangnya dia pernah membahagiakan kamu …"

Alhamdulilah... seeing you happy.. makes me happy..:)

Dear your heart..

Dear your heart...
its already 18days since that days.. i hope that u okey with dat..coz i know my heart still felt the same way as before...nd still missing u and that killing me inside...

u know wht.. i try my best to be ur friends..:)).. yes i can be ur friend..and i really really really want to be ur friends..mcm kita dlu3 sblm kapel..best kan...teasing each other..no sad thing..just happy.. tp syg im not strong enough.. my heart telling me that "she hurt so much thinking of us in title of " just friend..
so i stop texting u.. stop looking for you..and try my best to igore u..:(
and i did...but it seem that my heart hurt again.. smua srba nda kena kann...everything feels so apart..my mind and my heart making me complicated..so i guess i need time to be alone..just me..my heart and my mind..:)
i know dat all my post in fb shown how happy i was.. but truly if u know me.. i am not that happy.. i am just a girl that trying to hide all
her sadness.. and i wnt u know dat i am okey wit that even if im NOT..:).

and as time goess.....

~She will chase you around for a while but there's going to be a day when she gonna stop running in circles around you because she trying to get over you and at that moment she realize how Tired and HUrt she is_wishing and wating you to do the same thing for HER..:)

APAlettu...mylife..haha

guess wht?.. arine cuti lagi loh.. neway happy full blast coz dpt rehat yg scukupnya after berkerja 20 hours non stop..ohmagiad..
well sda start kerja shif malem..of course la penat gila mau mampus...
tp best kerja malam...ndala busy mcm kerja pagi n of course kerja petang yg buat ak mcm teda life..
serius.. i hate kerja ptg..XDA life dude.. msk kerja jam 2 balik jam 9 mlm...blik kerja trus tidur.. bngun tdr p kerja lg..serius xda LIFE KLU MCM TU...
and
i love kerja pagi even ak terpaksa mmbuka mata seluas2 and memaksa diri tuk bngun d awal pagi.. LOL.. tp berbaloi2.. ptg bole rest2.. and n wondering.if ak sda kawin nti mesti best dpt sambut my lovely husband balik dri kerja...aisyee...(trep mau kawin dgn husband yg kerja waktu pejabat)i mean 8am-5pm...hahaha.. taek kushing btl... fuhhh...
neways wht hppen to my relationship skrg?.. apa mau kawin sda??...
hmm..lama sda ak nda stori mory kan.. well.. everything goes so much better rite now.. and most important thing is..:HE UNDERSTAND ME AND MY WORK of course..i feel that i am so lucky to have him in my heart...sob sob s0b... tiba2 mau touching2..awww dalam hati ada taman berbunga2  taik ayam...hahaha...

my life?..
yahhh... full of smile.. happiness...luck... success... learning a new things... hurt?..nahh..ada la skit2..haha..
ari2 kerja la yg pnting,,, there is no much time playing around mcm dulu2... kerja..kerja..n trus bkrja..
beginila life org sda bkerja...baru ak faham.. thats y dlu my bebeh slalu xda masa tuk ak..sbb busy kerja.. and rite now me and him.. even busy mcmna skalipun.. still we do had spend time together... n i miss him so much...n i hope that he knows..true from my heart...:((.. sadihh la konon2..pdahal ari2 texting..mau lg rindu2..puiii gete2 dangdut btl..

my family?
hope smua shat2 d kay-kay...0_0... mau balikkkkkk...dei homesick la mcm2..T_T
my mom and my dad.. yihaaaa... bru balik dr beijing... guess wht ole2 yg ak dpt?....
i got handbag... GUCCI handbag... jgn jeles...hahhaa...
 i love u mama and bapa.. sbb sgt memahami ur little daughter..yepiiiii...:))

my friend?
rindu banget sama kamu smua... specially..T:H:E:M...

(SEMUALA BA yg d sabah etu..).. :))..

ok..thats all for now... its time for me to sleeepp...againn....
MODOP trus.. soryyy eyes..face,,body..nd my beloved blogi i need some rest..
need to HIBERNATE my self.. bubye... nti ak update lg...

Assalamualaikum..n have a nice days//

Bahagia lagi..

Halu my all reader...haha..happpy sgt lettu.. tgk tajuk entry pun i dah tahu...hehe..
anyway.. just mau update.. everything goes so much better rite now..
kite bahagia lg..LOL..GEDIK..mintapuji..hahaha
actly ak dgn cop my mr apple dah ok seperti sedia kala.. ALHAMDULILAH

RINDU sgt dgn dia.....
nd arine dia DEMAM..ciannn...huhu..
sory hby...i busy kerja nda dpt mau lyn dia 24h...-_- (apa punya gf laa)..
wondering mcmna la nti klu ak dah jadi BINI dia yg sah..(INSYA ALLAH)..
siannn laa..
Bini jaga org sakit..tpi laki sndiri nda dpt mau care sgt...
anyway I LOVE U SO MUCH...

p/s: kan dah ckp... kita gadu dgn dia..gadu2 manja jah.. xbole mau gadu lama2.. Hati rinduu tau....hehe..PUIII sweet mcm taik2 kn..haha...

My heartache

my heartache... don't know y...
myb its because that thing that ruins my mind lately and cause my heart so much in pain...

Dear heart please don't expect anything..
-HE will not be the same as he use to be again.. understand that....
-HE will not be always beside u when you need..
-HE will not texting u 24h everydays..
-HE will not do the same activity that u used to do with you..
-HE will not spend a lot of his time just for you...

YES..HE CHANGED..

BUT all the thing that your heart should remember...
-HE always THINKING of you..everytime even if he has a lot things to do...
-HE TEXT you..and the shortest text that he would send is "i love u"n "i miss u"..
-HE always spend time for u even if he so TIRED listen to you..
-HE will gets angry and said hurtful words because he LOVE u. and regret it after all he said.. 
-HE always beside you..and when u need him.. just remember he always in your mind..
-HE wanted to do everything with you..  but dear the is TIME running away..

suddenly...

halo..gudmorink my reader.. long time no post rite.. sory sangat2 busy kerja loh.. i really really dont have time at all...hmm...

so apa cerita tiba2 suddenly...
gosh bgn td pagi mata bengkak mcm bolaa...kwn tnya napa mata ko bengkak smcm arine..
kite jwb.. xtau la.. kena gigit lipas kali smlm..HAHA..funny..
actly smlm ada org ngis diam2... hmm.. xtau la hati rasa sakit sgt..tu la mau ngiss tiba2 ja airmata ne...
sob sob sob...mcm tu ka bunyi ngis..HAHA..again funny...-__-

ok fine.. mmg mcm budak2.. MANJA.. skit2 mau ngis..apalaaa... tu pun mau ngis... MATANG SKIT LA...
actlly last nite is the first time i cry bcos of...........................................................

nda tau la knpa.. lately ak rasa sunyi sngt.. hmm..sbb rindu yg teramat kali kan.. tu la sunyi...
nd busy sgt smpai xda msa mau luangkan bersama...

lps tu smlm..try nak lpskan rasa rindu dgn dia...tpi lain pla jadinya.....................................
myb ak yg xfhm dia.. dia busy..penat...tiba2 ak mgada2 mintapuji..mau dia on whtapp la..mcm2.. KAN KENA MARA..padan muka ak...

xda niat pun mau bt dia mara..SORRY syg... lepas ne jadi MATURE ok...
FINE.......lps ne xmau ganggu dia..klu dia xmsg..means dia busy n xda masa tuk ak..so ak pn kna fhm..no need to gatal tgn mau msg..on whtapp ka or whatever it is..and KALU RINDU..simpan dlm hati.. xpyh BANYAK ckp...BANYAK Tanya..nd minta mcm2...
ok take noted..i will try even if thats makes me hurt and die that much-waiting...........

Sakit rindu..!!..haha

adoiii...!!! RINDUNYA... goshhh...
T__T..
Rindu sgt kat DIA (myapple).. hurmm..
well my apple busy sgt dua tiga empat lima enam tujuh lapan sembilan spuloh hari ne...haha
kerja kan mstila busy..tmbah2 pula time2 hujung tahun mcm ne....
bnyk kerja nk d settle kan rite..so dear dg aminah binti zanudin..u need to understand him ok..^_^.. yess i do understand him.. but sometimes i miss him damn much.. and it make my tangan gatal mau text dia.. wlaupun ak tau dia busy... jahatlaa tngan ne.. xbaik tau...and sometimes ak jd serba salah mau text dia.. text atau x text.. yes or no...

Mcmne la bercinta jarak jauh kan..
both of us need a little Patient, TRUST, and Understanding...Weee...:))

even though me and my apple berjauhan.. mcm pic d atas..haha..
but still we get close a day by day... coz i know the more we are separated the more we will love each other...
lgpun.. hubungan jauh2 mcm ne kan best... xpyh slalu jumpa.. and the most important thing is..
"Cinta" between me and my apple akn sentiasa terjaga..and wlaupun citra cinta terindah kami xmcm couple2 yg d luar sna.. but still yet we do believe &  feel the same way as they are.. love my apple..

is just a space in between

My birthday..^_^

10/12/12...

on my birthday..

Happy birthday to me..

happy birthday to me...

happy birthday happy birthday..

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME....

( nyanyi lagu birthday tu diri sndiri ka.,?..haha)

Memory... is the diary that we all carry about with us. 

1st of all.. i want to thanks to my lovely friends yg hadir tuk celebrate by BIRTHDAY,,
actually its gathering party but turn out to be "my birthday party" la pula..(sibuk ja kan..haha)..
anyway a big thanks too...

Siena, Peeya, Fadhema, Aicha, Mie, -also jefri.. thanks sbb dtg wlaupun last minute..:))

 

"i 'm gonna miss u all"

10/12/10 _______10/12/11_________10/12/12

hahaha... good trick ah smpai bole tolak ak jatuh dlm air..
 anway da best memories ever...

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A MILLION THANKS TO THOSE WISHING HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME..

Birthday gift from my mum and dad... 

Thanks mama dgn bapa coz always give me support in everything that i do..

going away...-_-

Memory is a way of holding onto the things you love, the things you are,
 the things you never want to lose

don't ever cheat in relationship

Assalamualaikum and selamat tgh hari my sepatukaca sekalian..tgh ari la sgt...petang dah pun...(smbil mguap) hmm..im just woke up from sleep...tidur lagi tidur lagi...its already 16:27..gosh..i forgot to text my apple...
well i got fever and running nose + epistaxis all over again.. T_T
hmmm...actuality i dont have any idea to write entry today... but.. still ak mau juga bt entry...>__< sgt keras kepala..hmm...  tgh mcari idea yg tepahat tebuku tetanam tesumbat and tetimbus di kepala otak ak yg dah lama berkarat ne....tiba2.... tettt... terigat kata2 kwn ak dua tiga empat hari yg lepas..
dia ckp...
don't ever cheat in relationship..if u are not happy just leave it...(ok ini xda kena mgena dgn my apple okei..)
time tu tgh crita2 psal kisah dia.. adala kan kisahnya...luahan hati gituu mana bole kasi tau.
for tat i dedicate this entry specially to sapa2 yang tgh Broken Heart.. chill la peps... come on...
ITS TIME TO WAKE UP... no need to bersedih sgt,...lap2 airmata tu ok...trutama yg prmpuan tu...hehe..
 many people said that..moving on its the best thing to do when we have this heartache or broken heart...
but for me.. moving on ONLY its not good enough...wht u need to do is.....

1. cermin diri
2. dekatkan diri dgn Allah swt and last but not least
3. perbaiki diri..:))

kbye... mau text my apple...rindu sda..1 ari aku tdr arine...hmmm

my 1st peplum kurung..

taraaaaa.....
assalamualaikum reader..
ketemu lagi....
9/11/2012
i got my 1st peplum kurung...well fashion baju kurung zaman skrg kan...ala2 macam baju saloma time dulu..
klu kmurg perasan...fashion2 baju skrg smunya old skull punya fashion..dorg bawa balik fashion2 datuk moyang kita yg dlu..wait.. fashion designer dah xda idea ka mau bt fashion baru..hmm..
tapi cantik rite... fashion lama kadang2 lebih cantik wat dri fashion skrg yg ntah apa2..
i mean fashion yg x cukup kain tu laa...HMM

selepas d touch up

baru jahit xda labuci lg

ok actually peplum kurung ak ne xberapa nak jadi...T_T..
skirt baju kurung peplum ak silap jahit Laa...
aunty tukang jahit tu salah dgr ak ckp skirt dia mau skirt payung... but apa yg dia dgr ialah skirt duyung...
tats y la peplum ak nmpak pelik skit...
spatutnya mcm pic dibawa...  see the different.... :((

peplum kurung

ok bye..tats all...

p/s : sipemiliksepatukaca dlm proses utk mgurangkan post2 yg agak megarut dn mcarut... tu pasai la entry dia pendek2 ja smua..HAHA... hope u enjoy reading it okey...love u reader..

~Lunch at Palace Hotel

salam...
7/11/2012
just a few picture from lunch meeting aritu..
hahaha...
lunch at palace hotel...wow wow wow... bnyaknya mkanan,....@_@.. Mata tu kontrol skit... haha
neway aritu join my sister punya event d palace hotel...saja mau myebokkan diri la tu.. interfrem jew...
actly i dont have any dress for that event..so baju yg ak pakai ne smuanya... pick and match.. well pakai ja apa yg ada.. malas mau beli baju baju...
tema for that event WHITE&BLACK...
so since i aready have that white coat..black skirt and also black shawl yg ak pkai time dinner grad day haritu...no need to buy anything...just pick and match...yeah thats me...everythings that i wear is always pick and match..
even though kadang pick and match ak agak pelik...haha..
but its okey..as long as my EYES nampak cantik dan somell..other opinion are not needed...
suka ati saya la mau pkai apa rite... siapa ko mau judge2 apa yg ak pakai.. klu ko tu fesion designer ndak apa jga mau sibukk... tpi selama ak pakai baju2 pelik mcm tu xda pula org perna komplain...smua ckp cantik ja..xda pun ckp hodo or pelik... and sometimes durg puji yg i creative.. pandai match kn baju...(ok yg ini agak perasan)...>_<

MISS VOGUE AWARD 

Ok gmbr tu xda kaitan dgn entry...saja mau mnunjuk la tu..well dpt anugerah Bajuku paling Vogue masa dinner graduation day diploma nursing usm aritu...haha...
neway.. miss tat time..hmm...
kla tats all entry for today...
sampai ketemu lagi ya sepatukaca skalian..
bye...

Give my best on love

Anyeonghaseyoo...
halu2.. slamat petang smua..

jiwang lagi2..haha..well i have nothing in my head...everthings full with his thought..OMG... spertinya ak sda digila..astga..gia ba kau itu..haha..:D
silly little girl...my entry give my best on love..waitt.. adaka ak sdg bt entry jiwang lg...hmm...
snguh mmbosankn... anda digalakan utk TIDAK mneruskn pmbacaan dlm blog ini..kerna blog ini sedang di landa virus2 chenta..ngerti ya reader smua...dipersila kan keluar...tolong laa...please selamatkan diri anda...

ok since i am in love...
gelila gia...jiwang2...ewww..... wht happen to me...so unbelievable... haha...
OKEY...back to NORMAL...
sbnarnya apa yg ak mau ckp dlm entry ak kali ne..
actually...

~I gave u my heart and that's all i can give u..and if that's not enough for you..then i'm not enough for YOU..:((

"when you loves someone.. u want to give him/her the best that u have right?...
but some people doesn't appreciate wht u gave.. or somehow they dont even see that...
so all u can do is stop expecting people to "menghargai"
because the more u expect..the more u will get hurt...or even worst ~disappointed...-___- 

while buat blog walking td.. ak tenampak this a few words ..that full with meaning...
dari kata2 di atas tu..i am 100% agree with that.. bcause i am doing the same things to my apple...^___^
GIVE MORE AND EXPECT NOTHING...
bagi ak this word show you how to give all u have to your partner or spouse 100% of your love without expect nothing in return...sbb dgn cara ne.. kmurang akan rasa lebih lebih lebih and lebih bahagia...and your relationship will always in bebunga2...trust me..because i already done with that...

DEAR My Apple~ i will never be the best 4 u.. but i will always give you my best :))

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